I just got back from what was my last ever Hallam Christian Union meeting.
They got me a cake and present to say goodbye, it was really touching.
I got home and sat down at my desk and then realised that that was the end. Like, the end end. And I just sat there and cried.
Not because I’m not going to get to go to another meeting or because I’m desperate to stay at Hallam, but because I’m so amazed and so thankful at how much God has used Hallam CU to change me. It’s been a massive part of my life for the last 5 years and being there both as a student and as a Relay worker has left a mark on me that will stay with me for the rest of my life.
I’ve learnt and done so much, made so many lasting friendships, been so challenged and tried my hardest to encourage others and to share the gospel. And at the end of it, all I can do is sit here and cry, in awe of God’s love and goodness.
I’ll never be the same, thanks to so many things and so many people. I am sincerely and eternally grateful to those people and to God. They, and ultimately he, has shown me grace, helped me to understand the astounding truth of the gospel and left me standing in the amazing certainty that I am forever to be loved and redeemed by God.
It’s the sweetest and the most shocking thing that my heart shall ever know.
And there’s such peace and joy from it that I don’t quite know what to do with myself!
My leaving words to Hallam are that of Philippians 1:3-11:
I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart; for whether I am in chains or defending and confirming the gospel, all of you share in God’s grace with me. God can testify how I long for all of you with the affection of Christ Jesus.
And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ – to the glory and praise of God.
I so pray that they would all truly know and experience God’s grace for themselves, and that they’d go on into the next year bold and courageous, confident that the gospel they have to share is truth and life to all who hear and accept it.
God, thank you SO much for all your mercies, patience, gentleness, love and care and most of all thank you for Jesus, without whom I would still be a lost sinner, outside of your loving forgiveness and grace. But because of his sacrifice on my behalf I can come before you, forgiven and clothed in his righteousness. I don’t have anything worthy of you, but in thanks and gratefulness for this grace, all I can do is offer my praise and give you my life. It’s yours for eternity.
I’ve got to the end of this post and have re-read it and I’m not crying anymore.
Instead there’s a little smile that’s crept onto my face.
It’s all just fond memories now 🙂